Howdy friends! How was your weekend? Did you get out for some fun? Stay in and write? Bit o’ both? I didn’t do as much writing as I wanted to. I keep making excuses and finding distractions to keep me from it. Not sure why it’s been so bad of late, but I hope I can find my focus again soon. I have so many stories to tell!
I feel like I spend a lot of these weekly update posts whining about how much I’m struggling to write, how the Imposter Syndrome is strong, and how I feel like I’m just going through this aimlessly. It’s not like I don’t make the time, but more and more I just don’t know what to do with that time. Like I’m still waiting for my mojo to come back.
I think part of the problem is I want to stretch out creatively. I’m not exactly feeling stifled by the blog posts; I like that I have them to keep me in the habit even when I’m feeling otherwise lethargic. But I’ve also had an itch come back in the past few weeks since talking to friends, old and new. Things I used to do that I miss, that I don’t quite have the time for because my free time is devoted to writing for the blog or working on my WIPs.
Leo and Kita’s story wasn’t the only thing I talked to my old friend about a couple weeks ago. We also talked about music. We reminisced about playing together and the summer jam sessions in my neighbor’s basement. It really made me nostalgic for my choir days in high school. Not for the first time in the last few years, I really miss singing all of a sudden. It doesn’t help at all that I put on a one-woman rock concert in my car most days on my commute home.
Despite my love for writing, I was never really good with writing lyrics. I don’t mind singing songs other people have written, but I’m not really technically skilled enough to arrange the music to accommodate my range to songs I would want to cover. I’m a soprano who loves to sing alternative rock and metal but without the lungs of Amy Lee.
My friend is a great musician though. He’s written so many songs over the years. I’d love to float the idea to him of helping me arrange covers that I can sing along to. But we’re both busy working adults who have very little free time as it is. And I don’t have the equipment to record myself anyway. I guess it’s little more than a pipe dream, but it’s one that has been sitting heavy on me for weeks.
The other itch I’ve been needing to scratch comes from my nerdy side. I keep getting fanfic ideas that I want to explore and that’s due in no small part to the handful of new writer friends I’ve made lately who are predominantly fic writers themselves. I’ve been reading a lot of fanfiction lately and remembering how much I loved writing it in high school. I feel a bit weird writing any of it here, with the exception being the posts exploring my OCs from my YYH fanfic that I shared back in November.
I guess all of this boils down to I’m feeling nostalgic for a time when I created with reckless abandon and sang to my heart’s content. I want to reclaim some of that spark, that joy, and just stop overthinking everything all the time. Like the guilt associated with wanting to do different things now. Why should I start something new when I have so many things that are unfinished? I feel like I don’t have the right, that I’ll move on before finishing the new things and then what was the point?
Anyway. Speaking of new things, how about some new prompts for this new week. I wonder if we’ll spawn any new characters from these?
379. How do you typically break the ice in a group setting or gathering?
380. If you were a school teach in a school for troubled kids, what creative methods would you use to teach them and keep their attention?
381. Do you think parents should automatically give their kids an allowance or do you feel kids should earn the allowance?
There’s definitely a story in that second one. I hope I can do it justice. These prompts should be fun, anyway. I’m not giving up! I’ll stop writing when I’m dead. And maybe even then I’ll haunt some poor soul with a Ouija board into letting me ghostwrite for them.
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Maybe I should become a comedienne. 😀
Nah, nobody wants that. xD
Alright, it’s been a weird, rambling night. I should probably call it quits for this update post. You’ve got your prompts now, you know what to do with them. I’ll see you soon with my spins on them! Have a great night!
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